Sometimes, I read old mail. I just sit around, reading all the email related to someone, or something. And then I remember what was, how I thought then, and how I thought my life would be now. With God’s grace and our parents’ support and blessings, I am where I would have liked to be. Even though I am not where I thought I would be at 30, when I was a teenager. I thought I would have a beach house, a driver, and an assistant! 30 seemed like a long time away at 13 and it felt like there would be enough time, and money would be super easy. Oh and for a long time, the first thing I planned to do with my first few paychecks was go on a cruise. I haven’t been on a cruise yet, but no regrets on that – we ourselves postponed that for a while and preferred to go for other vacations instead.
Back to where I started, when I go down memory lane, I remember what my priorities were then, and when I think about what they are now, I want to do it all. The old ones, the new and more! I would like to live the ideal life – starting my day with getting up at sunrise and going for a run with Vivek and Cocoa, then a good breakfast (pancakes, eggs et al), a great day at work, evening walk with my boys again, some gardening/crafts/jigsaw puzzle, happy cooking time, some good TV and dinner, and reading a book before sleeping. Sounds easy and perfect to me, and would probably even work for a few days like clockwork. And then it falls apart like a sweater that rips with one loose thread.
But surprisingly, it does not upset me! Because there is one thing that I have learnt about myself over time…something I did not know when I was 13. I absolutely love how these broken imperfections, shaky schedules, spontaneous changes, and lazy sundays hold on to each other to make one perfect life. The ups and downs shape the road and make the journey one hell of a roller coaster ride! Who says the roller coaster won’t go down again?? But thankfully from the time I started understanding time, there has always been someone next to me to hold on to and scream “Whoaaa” when the speed catches up again!